

I Want to Learn to Be Two Things at Once
by A. Benét
You are maneuvering the streets
of Hollywood like only a native
could, so expertly I get lost, until
you make a comment about beauty
and I look for scenes of blues and greens,
white crowning strong browns. We
are at the top of a concrete slop, what was
once a valley, swallowed by plastic
and glass. In the distance, mountains
stand one in front of the other,
begging to be seen as buildings
crowd them out. Because you said
beautiful I thought about taking a
picture, my hand twitched for my
phone, but I hesitated because
just then, I wondered if all of this
used to be mountains. The cracks
and abandoned buildings, the electric
cars next to the rusty gas sedans.
You say oh yeah and I think you’ll add
more, about how all this used to be
dirt, too soft, light colors, a desert,
how you can see more than what’s
right in front of you. It was so strange,
all this metal and decay, how easy
it was to separate the land, to see friction
and name it beautiful. I wanted you
to choose one. I wanted to close my eyes
and see flatlands and soapstone, wanted
to kiss where desert first touched ocean,
but we turned the corner into a mass of
cluttered cars and bodies, and I’d forgotten
there were mountains here at all.
BIO
A. Benét is a Black Queer poet and MFA student at San Diego State University. She loves literature and the color of burnt clay. Her poems have been nominated for the Best of the Net Anthology and have been published in LETTERS Journal, Foglifter Press, Honey Literary, and more.